If you know me at all you know that I love sleep. So I came home after Callie’s bootcamp this morning with every intention of going back to sleep, I mean it’s MLK day and I can sleep if I want. No, God had other plans for me.
I was laying there and my dog started freaking out on me, and he NEVER does this to the level at which he did. I was like hello, dog I am trying to sleep here but he wouldn’t stop. Then I was petting him for a bit, he decided to leave me alone. As soon as he quit, God said to me.. “Get out of bed and go read Psalm 30.” I said, NO I AM TIRED. I argued and said I’ll just look it up on my phone, “No get up” my phone wouldn’t pull the bible app up. “I won’t stop until you get up” No I will just lay here and open up the app on my Surface, the surface was dead. FINE. “Go to Psalm 30, I have something I want to show you.”
I got up and sat at my kitchen table, opened up Psalm 30 and here is what stuck out to me.
11 You turned my wailing into dancing; You removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy 12 that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. Lord, My God I will praise you forever!
If you have ever gone through anything difficult it is a powerful moment when you realize that in all of this there was purpose. Without that entire process he wouldn’t have been able to build me into the person I have become without the trials I faced.
9 What is gained if am silenced, if I go down to the pit? Will the dust praise you? Will it proclaim your faithfulness?
This part in particular jumped out at me… What if I am silent? What if I would’ve fallen asleep and missed this great word sent from God? What happens if we stay on the ground and allow ourselves to sink lower and lower? What can we gain? I’ve been there, I’ve been at a place where I was in a pit and I thought there was no way out, trapped in my mind and all of the lies screaming inside of my head telling me that I am not. I wasn’t proclaiming His faithfulness. I am His creation and telling myself otherwise is an insult, He created us with purpose we are all His dearly loved children. That’s the message we need to hold on to.
You pulled me out of darkness into your light, Jesus. You know every detail, every single thing yet you still love me. This perfect love so sweet, draw me closer, take me deeper. Let me heart not be content until every breath is the same as yours. Show me what It’s like to see heaven come down and fill this place. May we crave more of your presence. We won’t be satisfied until we see you face to face.